My mother was born on the Seminole Indian Reservation in Okeechobee Florida. She was Creek Indian, an Indian tribe from Alabama.
The story of how that came to be is not the reason for this article. It is the story of how I created a song with one of my Native American Flutes and titled it, Shadow Spots.
My mother was near and dear to my heart, and still is except she has passed on to another world. She passed away on January 28th, 2015. I created this song and released it out into the world on January 28th, 2017. It took that long to compile a complete version of this tune since many times I had to stop playing because of the many tears I shed during the process as my heart was heavy with grief. Missing her still haunts me but her love and wise words of wisdom live on in my heart and creativity.
Today, I am feeling a little bleak and so I decided to write this article and share for the first time how and why I named the song, Shadow Spots.
My mother’s skin was olive toned and on both arms had what is called in medical terms, “dark spots.”
Near the end of her life, I asked her one day, as I was photographing her hands helping a little hummingbird, why she had so many dark spots on her arms and what were these spots?
Without stopping from helping the hummingbird, she answered and said, “those are not dark spots, those are shadow spots. The ones on the left arm are constant reminders of all the people I pray for every night. The biggest ones are my family, my daughters, and my grandchildren. They are the ones nearest my heart. Sometimes, I notice particular spots fading away into my skin and disappear. So, I just believe those are answered prayers and it makes room for another shadow spot to come.”
I never told this story before to anyone. Not even a family member. The pain has just been too heavy to bare sometimes but now, for whatever reason, I will release it into the world in hopes of the message and song works in someone’s life today. Especially, to my dear family and closest friends as the Shadow Spots now begin to emerge through my Native Skin.
A sample of this song can be heard on Amazon or iTunes. Purchased as well. Thank you and thank you mom, you are sorely missed.